With all the whirlwind of excitement gone from returning home. I had become caught up in the holiday and again visiting everyone. I looked forward to seeing everyone, the hesitation from returning had dissipated. I only focused on one thing, finding a job. I looked day and night. Getting quite a few leads I became excited at finding something in the outdoor field.
The first week was spent filling everything out and that is all I did. Application after application, all day, nothing else mattered, I had to find a job soon. I stayed with Kim for a while and then with a good friend of mine for a weekend. I had gotten three good leads in the first week. Two jobs in Bettles, Alaska and one out in Colorado. I was very excited for the Alaska ones. I truly wanted them. How many people in the world could be as specifically qualified for it as I was? Less than a dozen? How many had applied?
While waiting to hear back form the three possible jobs i filled my days with organizing my belongings and applying for more work. It got to the point that I had exhausted almost all my options and started to worry about even finding one. Then I heard back from all three in the same day. Each conversation taking the same tone, I was more than qualified and they were sorry to say the position had been filled. Heartbreak, in just an hour I had received three no’s from all my good possibilities. What was I to do. I refocused and stopped everything I was doing.
If I wasn’t looking for work I was sleeping. I searched tirelessly over the hone and the internet for work. With just a day or so I was then thrust into thanksgiving and traveling for a few days, giving me the much needed time off. The day after my return, I received a phone call late in the evening, Colorado was calling. Answering the phone, I listened as the woman on the other end said the same thing I had heard before. This time, she ended with, I’d like to offer you a position with us. Without hesitation I agreed and set up a time to work out the formalities. I was going to Colorado to a mountain ranch deep in the Rockies. i was going to continue to live the dream, the adventure would continue.
I had no time now to get things done, I became focused again on condensing my belongings and arranging travel. Almost everything I owned had been on craigslist and I was still waiting to hear about any of my items. I took clothes to Goodwill, electronics to 2nd & Charles, and gave other things to friends. I only had a few more days before i would have to get out to Colorado. Just like the job offer, Craigslist came back at the last minute in a fury. I had emails coming in left and right for the items I was selling. I ran around town for two days straight meeting people, gathering up enough cash for my plane tickets and the first months worth of expenses. I was going to Colorado for the next 4 to 8 months and it really was happening.
I tried to contain my excitement as I told my friends and family. Each one becoming excited and happy for me but then asking me when, I had just come home. They were sad to see me have to leave so soon, yet still happy for me. A few became envious of where I was going and what I was doing. I thought about there comments and words on the bus to Boston. I was traveling north to bring stuff to my brother and to visit Deja Vu and Earthling.
They were envious of my life, my freedom, the places I was going and will go. They envied the adventure, the lifestyle, the excitement in my eyes. Funny, I envied them. Aaron 2.0 my best friend had just bought a house and all I could think about was how sweet it was. He had talked about each room and I was excited for him, for his plans for his house, plans for the summer and winter. I was envious of his stability and the places he was going in his life. I thought how I was living his dream and how he was in fact living mine. He wasn’t the only one though, my sister with her wild family was something I had on my mind. all of my friends were in a way doing what i longed for. I thought back to what I had joked about with my friends. they had asked what I was going to do next and I replied half jokingly that I would live their dreams, they were already living mine.